亲密的背叛 － the suffering of Jesus

今天碰到一对基督徒夫妇对我们的服侍有一些婉转的论断，这对夫妇对我们和我们的服侍可以说是完全陌生的，我们从未和他们打过交道，我想，他们对我们和我们服侍的看法，一定是从别的人口中得到的。在我还沉浸在昨天小组演出成功的喜悦中时，神让我经历这样一件小小的不太愉快的事，让我想到主自己。

何曾想到，有着最完全爱、怜悯和恩典的上帝，他自己朝夕与共的门徒，他身边最亲密的人之一，犹大，却用一个最亲密的记号，一个吻，出卖了那深深爱着他的主。其实，人有时是很残忍的，耶稣那位充满了柔情，最了解人性，最知道如何挽回人心的人类之主，都没有办法挽回犹大的心。主没有办法，只好忍受他最亲密之人的背叛。

主在这里，告诉我，服侍主不是要讨人的欢心，要想讨众人的欢心，那是绝对不可能的事。主所受的苦，一个真正跟随他的人，恐怕都会经历到，因为跟随主的路，从来不是花香满径。

想起刚信主的时候，看教会和教会里的人一切都是好的，一味地象小孩子一样傻傻的单纯，主借着很多的事情，让我成长。我知道，我再也没有办法回到当初的那种单纯，成长是一个痛苦的过程，但是主却对我们说：你们要长大成人。求主给我，分辨的灵，也求主让我定睛在主耶稣的身上，因为只有在主那里，才有奖赏、安慰、和前进的力量。

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我非常喜欢Michanel Card写的这首歌：
Why
Michael Card
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3T74qnBqip8&feature=related

Why did it have to be a friend who chose to betray the Lord
And why did he use a kiss to show them
That’s not what a kiss is for
Only a friend can betray a friend
Stranger has nothing to give
Only a friend comes close enough
To ever cause so much pain

Why did it have to be a thorny
Crown pressed upon his head
It should have been a royal one
Made of jewels and gold instead

It had to be a crown of thorns
For him this life we live
For all who seek to love the thorny
Is all the world has to give

Why did there have to be a heavy cross
He was made to bear
And why did they nail his feet and hands
His love would’ve held him there
It was a cross for all other cross
That people are supposed to pay

Jesus has come to the world to
Steal every heart away

Jesus has come to the world to
Steal every heart away